better let go than suffer

heart-broken . i still remember the first time i met you , the first time i glance at you , the first time i talk to you , and the first time i fall for you . moments are so precious back then .you stood there with your gang , talking about the new girl - jeha . nothing much i noticed about you . because back then i take you as a stranger . slowly as time passes , i found you cute . LOL . although not "so" charming , i guess ?

one semester was gone , one night i was chilling playing facebook - as usual . then suddenly popped up a chatbox with your name on it . then we start talking . then you said you like me . i was like :" HAHAHA , this guy is damn funny !" . that conversation i took it as normal . 2nd semester start , i saw big changes in you .  you start to peek at me , watching over me like a guardian angel , keep noticing my every action , seldom talk to me , every-time i see you , you will turn away . i thought to myself :" strange" . well , a feeling start to grow in my heart like so thunderstruck .slowly , i'm falling for you too .

everything just like usual . but suddenly one time , a girl meet me up and said a lot a things to me . i felt like that time its not meeting , its like starting a war . well , that girl actually like him , but he rejected her . he told her , someone stole his heart . she ask me weather i know about this . i was like :" why me ? -.-'' " . then i ask him about this issue , well he finally admit it . damn ! nothing much particular . at the beginning , we are not a couple . we are just mates , mates that very intimate , feed each other , wearing the same g-shock  . ahhh , everyone was so envy about it . then some bullshits happen , just dont understand , why we cant be together . he simply found an excuse saying now its not the right time . so fed up . that was the old issue

but now , we are together . but things seems not so right . i lost confidents to maintain this relationship . i completely lost it . so i decided to end it . i said to him that :" let be friends in the moment " he keep like :" why ? what happen ? can you tell me please ? WHY ! " . clearly he dont want to let go . he keep calling me / msg me . he text me , the last message was surely touching : did you know that , when i eat , i thk of you . when i sleep , i thk of you , when i watch tv , i thk of you . when i go cs , i thk of  you . whatever i do , i thk of you . i cant afford losing you , my dear . that message surely hold my heart back . but now .. i cant stop thinking about leaving him . goshhh .. someone , tell me how to do please .

one minute of love suddenly , its like a battlefield